2021.04.11
在我人生進入靈魂暗夜的時期，是主的溫暖給了我希望。過去近兩年的時間我在工作和私生活都出現了很大的問題，工作上找不到方向不知何去何從，生活也失去動力不知該如何走下去。一年內換了五個工作毫無方向，又流連夜店染上酗酒的習慣逃避現實生活，以為自己知道在幹嘛其實只是在欺騙自己而已，這樣的生活持續了一年多。
突然有一天早上我坐在床邊，想到自己為什麼會活的如此狼狽，頓時覺得全身無力癱軟在床邊，就想放聲大哭我跪在地上不斷的痛哭，想到以前曾經和家人一起吃飯禱告，我開始心中跟上帝說：我受不了了，為什麼我會把自己活的這麼痛苦，請你幫助我，請你幫助我。
但沒想到我哭到停不下來還放詩歌來讓自己冷靜，還是一樣停不了悲傷的情緒，我躺在床上心中不斷的跟上帝說：請幫助我讓我的心平靜，上帝請你幫助我，大概想了一會兒，突然間有一股暖流從我的背後經過，我瞬間覺得非常的平靜，沒有任何的懷疑然後就平靜的睡著。
那時開始我就相信上帝是不斷垂聽我們的禱告，無論我是怎樣的人他都接納我，他是無條件的愛我不斷的應許我，使我生命重回正軌，能夠受洗是上帝給我的恩典。
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In the darkest spiritual moments of my life, the warmth from Jesus gave me hope. In the recent almost two years, there were major issues that happened in my work and private life. There was no direction in my job, nor motivation to move forward. In a year, I changed five jobs with no direction and fled from reality by indulging in liquor by visiting night clubs. I thought I knew what I was doing, but in truth I was only deceiving myself, and this happened for more than a year.
One morning I suddenly sat by my bed, thought about why I was living in such poor conditions and slumped weakly by my bedside. I wailed as I knelt on the floor and thought about how I ate and prayed with my family. I started telling the Lord in my heart, “I can’t take it anymore. Why am I living in such agony? Please help me. Please help me.”’
It was unexpected that even when I played a hymn to help myself calm down, I continued crying and couldn’t escape from my sorrow. I laid in bed and kept telling the Lord, “Please help me feel at peace. Lord, please help me.” I thought for a while and suddenly a warmth spread from my back and I instantly felt very much at peace. I had no doubts and peacefully slept.
From that moment on, I believed that God continuously listened to our prayers and He accepts me for who I am. His unconditional love and fulfilled promises caused my life to return to normal. Being able to be baptized is a blessing from the Lord.
