2020.08.05
Jasper和同光，謝謝你們的禱告，我們公司的裁員時期已經結束了，而我也保住我的工作。在這裡我想分享一些事。
在公司的裁員期間，有二個晚上，我夢見和台灣教會的弟兄姐妹在一起，而且在夢裡我用中文交談（通常我的夢全都是英文），所以醍來後，我一直在想這些夢是什麼意思。而我又想到，有時候神要我們去做一些事，那些事是有時效性的，一旦錯過了那段期間沒有去做，也就錯過了神要給我們的恩典。所以我猜這些夢應該是告訴我，雖然那些弟兄姐妹離我很遠，可是基督的肢體是不分遠近的，而且要我看到禱告所帶來的奇妙恩典。而我不想錯過神給我的這樣提示，所以向您提出代禱的請求。
幾天後，我被通知我被列為開除的名單中，其實這是出乎我的意料之外，許多同事也非常的驚訝，因為以我在公司的表現與能力，是不會在這名單之中。而公司在這段期間也給開除名單的人有機會反駁。而我也當然在這次的機會中提出我在公司中所做的，還有我在去年度的工作表現幾乎得到滿分。而我的主管也認同我的説法。可是他必須和其他更高層的上司討論。而這段期間，除了我的主管與我站在同一陣線，一些經理和客戶也出來幫我。
過了一兩個星期，還是沒有下聞，後來我的主管私下打電話給我，告訴我這件事已經到了上面更高層級的總裁，而且他們不想將我從開除名單中移除，所以情況可能不太樂觀，可是他會繼續爭取我的權利。而這時，我也體會到公司這套「反駁的制度」原本只是做表面功夫，所以這些要被開除的人，是已經被內定了，所以不管提多麼有利的證據，還是會被開除的。而且後來我又聽說，沒有人在這套反駁系統下成功的。
所以早在兩個星期前，所有要被開除的人已經都被開除了，就只有我還沒被決定。在這段時間內，真的是靠著神去過每一天，因為我真的不知道我的未來會是如何，也對未來失去了方向。可是我也在這段時間內學習到在看不見的東西/應許上信靠著神；而且不要將目光放在困境上，要將目光放在神；因為神在任何事發生前已經計劃好了一切。
今天早上收到主管的來信，告訴我已經不會被開除。讓我反觀在這段期間所學習到所看到的，因為我已經有很長一段時間沒有要求別人代禱，可是經過這一切，我又看見禱告的奇妙，而禱告真的是能搖動神的手，將如高山一般的問題移走。通常我只相信一些看的到的常理，可是神卻要我學習在看不見未來的困境中，仍然要信靠神，捉住神的應許。
真的非常感謝你們的代禱。
Jasper and Tong-Kwang, thank you for your prayers. The layoff period of our company is over, and I have just heard I have kept my job.
During the company’s layoffs, I dreamed of being with my brothers and sisters in Christ from the church in Taiwan for two nights, and in the dreams I spoke in Chinese (Usually, in my dreams I speak in English), recently I have been thinking about what my dreams may mean. I also thought that sometimes God was trying to lead me to do certain things, and those things were time-effective. If we miss action during that period of time or if we don’t do said action, we will miss out on the grace, God wants to give us. It is my guess that my dreams should tell me that although the brothers and sisters in Christ are far away from me, the body of Christ is not dependent on the distance, and that they want me to see Gods glorious grace that prayer can bring. I didn’t want to miss the nudge God put to me, so I asked you to pray for me.
A few days later, I was notified that my name was to be included in the list of potential redundancies. This was beyond my expectation. Many of my colleagues were also as shocked as I was, because based on my proven performance and ability for the company, I shouldn’t be in this situation. During the redundancy period, company gave redundancy candidates an opportunity to challenge their predicament. Of course, I also mentioned all my accolades I did for the company in this opportunity, and I reminded them that I have a near perfect work performance score for last year. Thankfully, my line manager agreed with me, but he would need to discuss with other higher-level managers. During this period, in addition to my line manager standing with me, other managers gave me solidarity and a client also came out my aid.
Around a fortnight later, I still had not heard about my situation. Then my line manager called me privately and told me that my fate had reached the higher-level presidents level, and they didn’t want to remove me from the redundancy initial list, which left me feeling very un-optimistic, but my supervisor reassured me that he would continue to fight for me. I also realised that the company’s “Challenge system” was just superficial, so those who would be redundant had been decided internally, so no matter how much advantageous evidence you provide, they would still make you redundant. Then I also heard that no one succeeded in this “challenge system”.
So as early as two weeks ago, all the people who were to be made redundant, had been and only my case was still undecided. During this period of time, I really had to depend on God every day, because I really didn’t know what my future would be, and I lost my direction for the future. So I challenged myself and learned new things during this time, including how I should learn to trust God on the invisible things/promises; and don’t look at difficulties/problems, but look at God, because God has got a plan for every outcome, and situation.
I received written confirmation from my line manager this morning telling me that I am no longer at risk of being made redundant. Which came as a massive relief & weight off my shoulders. It has let me reflect back to what I have learned and witnessed during this period. I have not asked others to pray for me for a long time, but after all of this, I saw the wonder of prayer, and how prayer can really shake God’s hand, and removes the mountain of problems. Usually I only believe in what I can see, but God wants me to learn that I can’t see the future in this uncertain time, but just need to trust and hold on tight to Gods hand as he walks me down the path he has laid out for me/us all.
Thank you very much for your prayers.
